sometimes i envy frens who quarrel.. have u quarrelled with a fren b4? i tink i hav, it was in pri sch.. n after tt i was really afraid to make pple angry, how ironic tt i always say how fake pple r, when all the while i m the greatest faker.. in fact i do get angry quite often, n i cant stand some really small things in life, but i hardly get angry in your face, rite? i jus show my 不爽 face n tt's the furthest i will go.. but i truly believe frens who quarrel are frens tt can face the strongest tests, bcos they r able express their unhappiness about each other..

b4 i started on this entry, i thot of listing all the 不爽 stuff tt i experienced out budden i thot, i wld like u to know it, but mayb u prefer not knowing it, n u will be better off not knowing it.. who knows, i m jus a selfish person who wants to believe what's going thru my mind now..

several incidents earlier on made me reflect on the way i handle things, m i frank enough to tell u in your face tt u irritated me, tt i hate the tone in your voice, tt i jus wan to be left alone? i guess not, cos u guys still hav no idea tt's how u made me felt..

sometimes when i say ok!! do you know tt 7 in 10 times i've wanted to say, no i tink i wan to stay at home/actually i changed my mind abt it/no, i wld like to save more money/nah, i'm tired...

sometimes when pple say how much they miss seeing someone, do u noe 9 in 10 times i do not agree, bcos i never really had the feeling of missing someone.. 1 in 10 times i thot, mayb the feeling of missing=haven seen him/her for a long time..

do u know 9.99 in 10 times i walk with pple, i felt tt i was walking alone..

toking to a fren jus now, i realised how eager i always m to ask for pple's help but not doing anything in return.. budden again, m i obliged to do something i dislike jus to return u a favour? tt's wad's running thru my mind during the conversation, i felt guilty but still i really cant help u..

sorry to all whom i have nagged about in front of others
sorry to all whom i have taken for granted
sorry to all whom i haven been able to help
sorry to all whom i have not expressed frankly how i felt
sorry to all whom regards me as ur fren

sorry to all who tinks i m lousy fren/sister/daughter..
i really am..